Daddy~ after all these years ~my heart still cry's for you
my heart will never understand why you didn't love me

As I sit here daddy ~ my mind takes inventory of all there is to me ~
and it wonders what was so bad that the blood of my blood
did not want me

Daddy ~ was it the way I looked ~
did I not speak well ~ walk properly

I cant get answers from you now daddy as you are now long gone
I have tried to step over this hurt ~ through this hurt ~ even slide under this hurt
and still it remained ~

Daddy ~ I don't remember a time when your arms ever embraced me
for this reason I could never trust any arms around me
I don't remember the time when I am told you did love me
for this reason no love had ever felt real to me

I have never felt worthy daddy because my life lacked your love ~
I will never know your love ~ but I will love you always

On this fathers day

I  will not visit the memories of you
I will not visit that hole that resides in my heart never to be filled
I will not feel worthless, unlovable

This fathers day

I will review my worth ~
I will view that hole you left
and
I will let the love of my family fill it ~
I will let the love for myself fill it ~
I will cry tears of joy for the family I have created
I will Thank God for loving me as his blessings are proof
that he does indeed